All That Makes Us Human Continues

                                                

had a really childish day today. I woke up at 1:30pm, contemplating going to uni and catching up on all the days this week (including this morning) that i've skipped... however a delightful call from mel took me out and about buying masks, face-paints, feathers, bouncy balls, corn. We ran around chasing bouncy balls with butterfly masks on eating corn giggling and falling all over the place. I like days like these. I don't enjoy them too often, but every once in a while. 

we bought the masks for this psychedelic picnic we have planned on friday, and the rest of the stuff for no real reason. All this nonsense was brought to a halt when I had a call from Dave, my EFTWA psychiatrist. EFT stands for emotional freedom techniques.. I have been wanting to quit this for a while, but counsellors are actually the hardest people to get out of your life. They never take no for an answer. He practices through a tapping mechanism, where he taps on certain areas of your face and body whilst getting you to say certain things. These taps can apparently unlock all sorts of things within you, and lock the

m back up again if desired. Anyway the sessions are actually pretty intense and distressing, and your kinda left scattered in a bit of a mess all over the place for the next few days. The thought of any more really quite distresses me, so I spent a while trying to tell him I really don't want any more. He argued and argued, trying to convince me that I had these big problems waiting like live volcanos for me, and that I at least needed another EFT session to tap everything back into a box and close the lid. I just kept trying to tell him that I was really quite happy going about that all in my own way, but he wouldnt let me say no to the friday session, but I am going to phone again tomorrow and say no for good. He asked me if I had been doing the tapping with myself, and I lied. Its really quite sad, I did enjoy Dave, he was an incredibly witty irishman with a great deal of understanding and human compassion. Dave is one of those people that makes you cry because his ways of trying to understand this world are so beautiful. He has this amazing gentle human spirit inside of him, its heartbreaking. 

All of this giddy joy, was brought back down to a much quieter sense of reflection after the talk with dave. This is the way I like emotions. When you have released so much laughter and shared so much joy, and then retreat back into the yourself, sink back into touch with the peacefulness of the universe and take your time just walking and thinking. Your mind is soft, and open, and you can observe all that goes on around you with a heightened sense of appreciation and unspoken connection and understanding in the unity of everything. Listening to BT's "All That Makes Us Human Continues" is the most perfect soundtrack to these moments in your life. 

(my brother in switzerland)